Gabrielle Union says that choosing surrogacy in order to conceive her daughter Kaavia, now 6, felt like a "cuckold," saying she was "watching somebody do something I can't do."

I’ll never have peace with it, ever,” Union told Marie Claire in an interview published on May 7. “It’s such a personal journey that I may never know full peace with the coulda, woulda, shouldas.” Kaavia is now a thriving 6-year-old and Union said she is “very grateful to our gestational caregiver,

The actor and advocate reflected on the process and why, at the time, it felt less like a medical solution and more like a personal defeat.